A new woman has emerged

I’m playing this GAME, in 90 days I will accomplish these outrageous goals. The goals I set are to raise 5 million for Mooniez, launch my motorcycle club, lose 15 lbs., Channel 90 people in 90 days, write 90 days to becoming irresistible, and to write and record my album and get signed. I’m so excited about this journey of change the cells in my body are adjusting as if they have been starving for this structure and new way of thinking all along. Its scary when you’re forced to succeed. This is structured so you can’t fail, everybody likes to play and nobody wants to be the loser.
Everyday I’m coming to great realizations and learning new lessons. I’ve realized that I’ve lived my whole life being so scared to fail/succeed that I don’t even half step….I fourth or eight step my way through most things. I’ve realized that I usually give up right before I succeed and that I NEVER put my all into accomplishing something for me. I’ve been just waiting to see if things will happen for me, if my dreams are written in the stars then they will miraculously come true. The majority of the time when I’m offered ways to get closer to realizing my dreams I’d be so scared and paralyzed that I couldn’t take advantage of the blessings sent to me.
I’ve realized that I have been feeling guilty of being my outgoing, beautiful, personable, mischievous, intuitive, stubborn, crazy, creative self. The shame surrounding who I really am to the core has become a burden on me. I am ready to releasing these fears of being ostracized and rejected. These ideas that weren’t apparent in my conscious mind aren’t empowering and are not working for me.
This first week has been very stressful but I’ve never in my life felt as if I’m living and making quick strides towards my purpose everyday. Releasing these old ideas through tears, bouts of moodiness, moments of exhilaration, feelings of heaviness, feeling like I’ve donned on my wing have all led to a truly wonderful week for me. I’ll be sure to keep ya’ll updated on my progress.